December 10, 2005 Saturday Morning, Part 1
Aaron’s talk to Friends of the Casa – Westport, CT
Barbara’s introduction; Why are you here?; Trainings: Finding spaciousness and ease with the arisings of the physical, mental, and emotional bodies
This day was part of a weekend workshop in Connecticut. On this day all the 25 participants have been to Casa de Dom Inacio, the healing center of John of God in Brazil.
Barbara: Welcome. I’m Barbara Brodsky. I’m profoundly deaf in both ears. If you can’t hear me, please let me know. I know how loud my voice is but I don’t know if there is an airplane flying overhead. Aaron probably does know if there is an airplane flying over and will speak up but I can’t. This is my husband Hal, and he is here to fingerspell. We don’t use full sign language, but just spelling the first letter of each word. So when there is some dialogue with you and Aaron, you’ll talk and Hal will fingerspell it to me.
Our plan for today is to start with just some simple introduction and then I will move into a trance and Aaron will take over the body and will talk to you. He wants to start with the bigger picture and where the Casa and your work there fits into that bigger picture. There will be time for him to talk, time for some dialogue with him, lunch, some other breaks. In the afternoon, an opening talk about some of the deeper energetic workings of the Casa, some of the questions you’ve all had. How do the entities operate? What happens with that hemostat in the nose? We’ve purposely left the day relatively unstructured because we know you’ll have many questions and we want to leave a lot of room for those questions.
I lost my hearing in 1972. I had perfect hearing until then. It obviously was a traumatic experience. I had just given birth to our first child. They don’t know exactly what went wrong, maybe hormone changes in the body from pregnancy. For some reason, the blood vessels became constricted and there was no oxygen flow to the middle ears so the nerves died. So there was no hearing and there was no balance.
It was a very difficult time. I couldn’t walk. I couldn’t hear. And I was so dizzy that I couldn’t even focus to see, to read. It was very hard for us to communicate with each other, to figure out how to take care of the baby and so forth, very scary.
I coped well with it. I had already been meditating at that time for many years and my spiritual practice supported me. I continued to meditate. But I shut my feelings aside, I shut grief aside, and anger, in order to cope. And I paid a high price for that, because I separated myself from myself.
So on one level I seemed to be living my life skillfully. On another level everything was closing in and I could feel that closing in. The more I shut myself out from myself, the more dishonesty, the more separation, the less I could find any kind of wholeness in myself.
I prayed for help, I was feeling very stuck. I don’t know what kind of help I was expecting, but it certainly was not for a discarnate spiritual entity to appear! There was really little in my prior adult life to lead me into this. I wasn’t a New-Ager. Even the word ‘channeling’ was foreign to my vocabulary. My religious affiliation was as a Quaker, which still is my formal religious affiliation.
So, I was sitting in my living room the day after this prayer for help, and a spirit appeared. I could see him: long white hair, white beard, deep blue eyes, high cheek bones—a somewhat biblical looking figure. I could feel his energy. You know how it is when your back is to a door and somebody walks into the room. Without hearing them, you can feel the energy. It was very clear to me that something was there.
I got up and went into the kitchen to make a cup of tea. If I could have passed it off and just said, “Ah, I’m hallucinating,” it would have been easier in a lot of ways. But I knew I wasn’t hallucinating, and that if I was experiencing it, it was real. I didn’t do drugs. I was emotionally relatively stable, and I didn’t hallucinate. So, the alternative was ‘real’.
I came back. I felt his presence again. I meditated a bit. I said, “Who are you? Why are you here?”
He said, “You asked for help.”
I sat there for the rest of that morning meditating, didn’t want to talk to him. The next day he was back. So I said, “Okay, I asked for help and you’re here. How are you going to help me?”
He said, “You’re suffering; let’s start there. Let’s look at the nature of this suffering.”
What he pointed out to me in the following weeks was how much I was blaming the deafness itself for my suffering. I believed if only I wasn’t deaf, everything would be fine, that kind of thinking. Certainly the deafness was a catalyst for it, but what was really creating the suffering was the grasping, the fear. Feeling so alone inside, wanting it so much to be different. There was so much fear and so much grasping, and then condemnation of myself, saying, “It should be okay.” So I really was putting myself out of my heart. No compassion for my situation, just, stuff it and cope.
What I learned from him those first two months was profound. I shifted from a place where there was so much fear I couldn’t go to a gathering. I couldn’t even have lunch with two friends, because if they started to talk with each other, so much tension, fear, and rage, really, came up. I’d see them talk, and the thought, “What are they saying?” became an enormous grasping impulse, then anger at myself that I couldn’t let it be. We’d be in a restaurant, one friend asking another to pass the salt or looking on the menu, asking, “Are you going to have the chicken or the tuna salad?”
“What are you saying?!” So much grasping.
As I got to know Aaron and to trust him, he asked me, “Watch the fear, watch grasping as an object.”
This was already how I meditated, watching what came into the mind and body and noting, “Here is tension in the body. It has arisen out of conditions. Here is fear. Here is an angry thought.” I had learned to observe body sensations and thoughts as objects, not disassociating from them, but not building a personal identity and stories around them. So, I’d been doing this form of meditation for many years already, but I had not been able to apply it to the experiences around the deafness because they were so difficult.
So, Aaron said, “It is no different. Here is not hearing. What is the experience of not hearing before all the stories come?”
And I could see what he meant—not hearing is just not hearing. It’s like we have an itch. An itch is just an itch. The impulse to scratch the itch is completely different. The aversion to the itch is completely different. In not hearing, just not hearing. In aversion to not hearing, just aversion. No judgment needed, no stories of “poor me” or “what will happen?” That’s fear, and taking it out of the moment. In this moment, just not hearing.
So the whole thing opened up. And the miracle was that after a couple of months there was just not hearing. When people opened their mouth to talk there was just not hearing, but all the stories didn’t come and all the grasping didn’t come. It was still painful sometimes, but I was no longer suffering in the same way.
It was painful because I would look at my three children and wish how much I could hear them. Our lives do bring us pain, but there is a big difference between pain and suffering. Pain happens. Suffering we have a choice about: how are we relating to the pain? So there was an enormous shift. Hal could see it in me.
And then friends began to ask to talk to Aaron. People came with questions for him. At first, they were yes and no answers. And then there was a longer answer. I said, “Aaron I don’t know how to do this.”
He said, “Just listen to my thoughts and say them out loud.”
I did that, and somebody said to me, “Oh you’re channeling.”
“What is ‘channeling’?” I asked.
At that point I was a sculptor. I taught sculpture at University of Michigan. I had spent my entire college and adult life getting to this point where I was a successful sculptor, selling works, getting commissions, getting some name for myself, invited into shows.
It’s very interesting to me as I look back that it didn’t matter. It was very clear this is the work I took birth for. So I made a shift that year after I met Aaron and just began to teach the meditation practice which I had been doing for many years, but which he was helping me to find ways to articulate, and channeled Aaron.
Around that work, within a year or two a non-profit organization, Deep Spring Center, grew up. Deep Spring Center for Meditation and Spiritual Inquiry. We hold classes and retreats. I’m the guiding teacher, but there are fifteen other teachers. We teach in many different venues: in the community, in hospice, in prisons, not channeling, just teaching meditation. But for almost everybody there, Aaron is a primary teacher, and he’s what holds Deep Spring together.
I am so grateful to him as my teacher. It’s really transformed my life. It’s been just an amazing experience. I teach all over the world. It’s wonderful to come to places like this, just sharing Aaron in this way. I see him transforming people’s lives, and it’s beautiful to watch. So I’m very grateful for where my life has taken me.
The deafness at this point is simply part of the path that took me to where I am right now and to the ability to do the work I am doing. It still challenges me at times. One of my sons is a professional musician. He writes his own music and words and he performs. I saw him performing on a stage last month in front of hundreds of people. I was sitting up close. I could see him, but I can’t lip read from that distance, and I wish so much I could hear his voice. So there is still some sadness. But he sings for me privately. He writes down the words and music and plays the songs slowly so I can follow them. I’ve got a sense of how he must sound.
But I do see the deafness also as a gift. Our lives bring us many gifts, and they sometimes come in odd shapes. We don’t recognize them as gifts at first. It takes time for that.
Through many years of deafness, people had been suggesting to try this or that for healing. In the beginning I did. And then I saw there was a franticness to it, a grasping, and I put it aside. And for many years I just said, “No, when the right thing comes along I’ll know it.”
Somebody I don’t know—I got on her mailing list “by accident”—sent me an email about a trip to John of God. I read this and went to the website, and I said, “That’s it. That’s what I’ve been looking for.” There was an immediate resonance with Joao’s picture. I made the decision to go there almost immediately. And it surprised both of us (looks at Hal) because for so many years I had just said, “Okay, I’m deaf and that is how it is for now.”
But it had become clear to me in the years just before that email that I was ready to release the deafness, ready to hear again. And I understood that it was possible, although medically the doctors say, of course, not possible.
So, I went through the list on a website of all the Casa guides, read about each of them. Found Heather’s name and also picked out a couple of others. Emailed these three or four people, and when Heather wrote back, it was very clear she was the person I needed to be working with. It was clear to me immediately that we had some kind of teach-learn connection together. So, this is how I come to be here.
At this point, I am simply going to let Aaron come into the body and talk to you. Let me say one more thing before Aaron comes in.
For most of the years channeling Aaron I did what was called conscious channeling. This meant that I was in a light trance where I could hear his thoughts and take them, one fragment of thought at a time, and phase it in words and send it out. So it was a cooperative effort.
Doing that, both Aaron’s and my own vibrational frequency were in the body. It created a lot of dissonance in the body. I was exhausted. It was hard.
In February 2005, my last trip to the Casa, I asked for help with channeling. I felt they are experts on this; they use Joao’s body as lightly and gracefully as possible. They changed the channeling process completely. They said both of us cannot be in the body at the same time without tearing it apart. I have to get out before Aaron comes in, then he uses the body.
It’s really eased things. It’s been wonderful. They are wonderful teachers. So, Aaron will incorporate, as they phrase it at the Casa, and talk. I’ll need a few minutes, and I ask you to meditate with me as we make this shift.
Aaron: My blessings and love to you all. I am Aaron. I greet you in love and in light, and thank you for your presence here today.
I would begin with the admonition if what I speak does not resonate with your own deepest truth, please lay it aside. You are as wise and radiant as I am. So if something is discordant to your truth, lay it aside; trust yourselves. I can only speak from my own perspective. We are all of the Brother/Sisterhood of Light. We are one in that. It is your love and your radiant heart that have brought you here. I cherish and respect that in each of you. They say the eyes are the windows of the soul, and I find that to be true. (pause as Aaron looks around at participants) It is a great joy to look into each of your souls.
There is so much I would like to share with you today, we would need two weeks!Yet we do have time to cover some very important areas of thought. I know many of you come with questions about your experiences at the Casa. This afternoon I hope to have time to go deeply into those questions.
I do want to start with the bigger picture. Who am I? Who are the entities? Who are you? Beside the personal healing work, why are you here—here today, here in the incarnation, here as friends who have visited the Casa? Besides your own personal healing, what has drawn you to the Casa?
I called you Brothers and Sisters of Light. There is a vast Brother/Sisterhood of Light, beings that are deeply committed to the transition of Earth into a higher vibrational frequency and a higher level of consciousness.
In a universe in which there is much chaos, discordance, and darkness, the Earth is a grand experiment at bringing into expression the non-duality of light and darkness and seeing how darkness opens into light.
Light and darkness are not dual with each other; you must understand this at the start. Darkness is not dual with the light, but is simply increasing absence of light. That which is the darkest will one day come into the light, just as a room that has lain dark for thousands of years becomes light when you open the shutters.
But meanwhile, there are many beings who are quite attached to darkness and through that darkness, create much pain, much suffering, not only on the Earth but on many planes.
In response to those who are attached to darkness and contraction, those that you know as the archangels co-created with the elementals this planet you call Earth, holding it in a high vibrational frequency of love.
There was a nonintervention policy set around the Earth almost immediately upon its creation so that negative polarity could not come in and create havoc.
And yet, as part of the truth of the light, we honor free will. Therefore, positivity can hold a forcefield around the Earth, but if any being wishes to break through that forcefield, we do not stop them. They have free will. And so, negativity did break that forcefield and has penetrated into the Earth.
I remind you again that when I speak of negativity, I mean nothing that is absolutely evil, but that which carries intention to hold a lower vibration of increasingly negative polarity, and a contracted energy.
Through eons, some sentient beings upon the Earth have worked with spirit to raise the vibrational frequency of sentient consciousness and of the Earth itself to make it increasingly inhospitable to negativity.
At the same time, there has been no fear of that negativity, only recognition of it as teacher. If there were no mealy apple, how would you appreciate the firm, sweet taste of the crisp apple? Yet, we acknowledge that the mealy apple does not nourish and leaves a sour taste in the mouth. It is unpleasant.
The intelligent beings of Earth have expressed various level of consciousness. Some of these are familiar to you through traditional teachings such as Piaget’s, which talk about these levels of consciousness. He uses the terms magical consciousness, mythical consciousness, and rational consciousness—which is where Earth has sat for so long. Beyond the rational is vision logic consciousness, that consciousness that is just barely capable of perceiving beyond the physical senses, and on to psychic consciousness, which brings in the nonphysical senses and the ability to trust those senses.
Earth is en route through this whole array of consciousness, en route to what might be called Christ or Buddha consciousness, and to finally non-dual consciousness.
As we speak of these levels, it is important to remember that what I describe is like a building where all the floors are already in place. On what level do you reside? Thus, you do not create non-dual or cosmic consciousness, only remember it and how to raise yourself to it.
Many of you have participated in a very conscious way in that transition to the remembrance of and living in higher consciousness through your own spiritual practices. So, when I say non-dual consciousness, it’s not just a concept for you, but many of you have tasted that non-dual where nothing is separate.
On the relative level you are separate human beings; we don’t deny that. On the ultimate level there is just One and the transition of consciousness to remember that One. The transition of earth into a higher density eases the way for knowing the One, just as the knowing opens the door to higher earth density.
This process is something in which you and many beings are participating. As part of its service, the entire Brother/Sisterhood of Light offers the teachings of light and love in many different ways so as to be accessible to each of you in the way that you can best hear it.
This is not new. Jesus was of that Brotherhood; the Buddha was of that brotherhood; the teachings of the Druids, the Essenes, these are all part of the teachings of this Brother/Sisterhood. Many of you were there in those ancient times, and you’re here still.
Most of you are here because karma has pulled you back, because there is personal karma yet to resolve, but also because you have taken on this commitment to expanding consciousness as your highest truth, whether you have been able to verbalize that commitment or not. It is a commitment to service. A commitment to bringing love where there has previously been fear and darkness. A commitment to know yourself, and in that knowing, to know all beings, to know the One. A commitment to bring the power of light through on this planet, stabilizing an oasis of light in the Universe. It can become a place that will beam such radiance that it become a haven of light and then a source of light into the Universe in which there is darkness.
Love is the only answer to darkness, to hatred, fear, and greed. And you are all learning that, each in your own lives. Each of you was drawn to visit the Casa for some personal reason, sometimes physical, sometimes emotional, sometimes spiritual. Sometimes you are not clear why you went, just knew you needed to go.
On a conscious level, that personal reason brought forth the choice. But I think for each of you, if you reflect here, you will see deeply in the soul that commitment of service to the light that also drew you.
This is a brave and a beautiful work we do, this transformation of heavy vibration experience into light through the power of love. It is not easy work when there is such strong habit energy around the negative thoughts and around the heavy vibrations of the body. There is attachment to those as a sense of this is who and what you are.
What does it mean to release that heavy energy and self-identification to it and be light? Some people liken it to the experience of free-fall in outer space, letting go of everything that you thought you were, to allow what you truly are. It includes letting go of all your old attachments, belief systems, and whatever negativity there has been.
So, you were drawn to the Casa. The wonderful beings there that you call the entities, are very much of the Brother/Sisterhood of light. They have two commitments, because one cannot separate the relative and the ultimate level of being. On the relative level, their commitment is to the alleviation of the immediate human suffering, to healing the body, healing the mind. On the ultimate level, the commitment is to help shepherd this entire passage of the earth plane into the light.
When you sit in the current you are joining in a vast circle of beings, not only those who sit in the current room, but many more beings. Do you know the Buddhist word bodhisattva? This is a very loving being who often has no karmic need to come back to the earth, but comes back only for love, only for the alleviation of suffering.
Included in that circle of bodhisattvas are those who still may have some karmic reason to come to the earth, personal karma to resolve. Those whose highest intention is not just for the comfort of self but truly in service to all beings, to learn these lessons of love and manifest them in the self so you may bring them more fully out into the world, these are bodhisattvas.
Some of you see that service to all beings in the universe, but just service one to another is enough. The other represents all beings. So, when you sit in the current, you join that vast circle of great bodhisattvas, including great masters who are beyond human karma. You join in that great circle of love, and you bring forth your own commitment to serve that love.
Somebody asked me once, “Is this not like dangling a carrot in front of the horse to make it go, to say, well, we’ll give you physical healing, but really your goal should be enlightenment in the highest sense?”
I think not, because one seems to trick the horse to get him to go with the carrot when really one wants him to pull the cart, but nobody is tricking you. The deepest truths are available to you. It’s fine to visit the Casa because you have cancer or a bad knee and you want it to be healed. But nobody can go there and come away untouched by the love and light that’s there. So the inner transformation is left to your free will, to embrace it or to let it go.
For those who let it go, it’s not a problem. Nobody condemns you. But most beings do not let it go. It’s as if a spark is lit, and even if it takes several lifetimes, it will wake up in your soul eventually and awaken you to your deepest truth. So, this is the bigger picture of the work at the Casa, work in which you are all involved.
It’s one thing to be taught the experience of love, and another to learn how to bring forth that love even when there’s fear. Thus, in one way or another, in one articulation or another, we enter into a series of teachings that are ancient to the earth. These were the core teachings taught in the Essene community, the core teachings taught in many Native American and other such cultures, merely articulated in different ways.
I want to introduce you to these teachings in my own articulation of them. You’ll find they are not new to you, but perhaps you’ve never considered them in this precise a way before. (see appendix A for Aaron’s original articulation of these trainings given in Abadiania.)
Here are three sets of thought, not linear but simultaneous. Number 1, 6, and 11 are similar, but at different levels. Number 2, 7, 12 are similar. You do not live through these in a linear way, but you go back and forth deepening in one, which leads you to an understanding of another.
The first three are an understanding of the physical, emotional, and mental bodies. You all have four bodies—physical, emotional, mental, and spirit. They are increasingly heavy or light. The physical body has the heaviest vibration; the spirit body has the highest, clearest vibration.
Objects come to the physical body. For example, a cramp in the leg or an itch, a pleasant or unpleasant scent. Whatever is experienced by the body will either be pleasant or unpleasant, or sometimes neutral.
What happens on the precise level of experience is that the sense organ, the eye for example, touches an object, like the green scarf here, and seeing consciousness arises. For there to be seeing consciousness, there needs to be an eye organ and an object. If the organ and object are present, consciousness will arise.
For Barbara, there cannot be hearing consciousness because the ear organ doesn’t work. So, even if there is sound, there is no hearing consciousness.
When the consciousness arises it will either be pleasant, unpleasant, or neutral. There will be a perception. For example, perception of the color green. Old conditioning will enter in. If you have very unpleasant associations with a certain visual object, or even a little negativity about it, aversion and then certain stories come into your consciousness, such as, “This is good. This is bad.”
I use Barbara’s experience here. Her dog sometimes moves his bowels in the backyard, and once spring comes, there is a lot of dog feces to pick up. It’s been there for several months, covered by the snow, and lost any odor. Barbara must clean it up. The mind says, “Dog shit.” The nose expects there to be something unpleasant. She starts to gag. But it was simply the remnants of the food the dog had eaten that had wintered on the ground, that had no smell.
So, I asked her just to pick it up, not to think of “dog shit” and its associations, but simply to think of the nurturing of the dog and its digestive process. To think of it as that which could be turned into the soil as manure. The unpleasantness leaves. The story, “I don’t want to do this,” leaves. Gagging ends.
Your usual experience is that you don’t observe how consciousness, associations, aversion or grasping come up in your mind. You say, “I like this. I don’t like that,” and you build stories of good and bad. The stories include who you think you are.
You do the same thing with emotions and thoughts. Often with the thoughts and emotions there’s not much kindness to yourselves. If you are walking on the ground barefoot and you step on a tack, there’s going to be pain. There’s going to be blood. You don’t think, “There shouldn’t be blood or pain,” do you? You would stop and pull the tack out. Are there any of you who would condemn the foot? You would be loving to the foot.
When you step on the so-called emotional tack, that is, you walk into a room and somebody says something rude to you and anger comes up, most of you think, “I shouldn’t be angry.” This is not kindness!
So, you judge the anger. You condemn yourself for having anger. You say, “I won’t have anger.” And that “I won’t” —feel the contraction in “I won’t”—is just more anger. So when anger arises you practice anger.
It’s almost funny, because you have learned so well, most of you in this circle, to be gentle and caring to the physical body, but not so much to the emotional and mental body. You build a story of the self upon it, self-identification: this is the angry one, or perhaps the unworthy one, or the one who must be strong and be the helper. The particular story is conditioned by your own past experiences, and it becomes your image of who you think you are.
The first three trainings take the physical, mental and emotional bodies and ask you to regard how a physical sensation arises (knowing sensation, sense organ and object touching); how an emotion arises (seeing anger consciousness or sadness consciousness, for example); how a thought arises (seeing perhaps planning, or remembering consciousness); and to know these have arisen out of conditions. I am responsible to what has arisen. If anger has arisen, I am responsible not to use it in a way to harm others, but I don’t have to build a self-identification around it. The learning of this is necessary for your graduation from this plane.
In my teaching, I use a system in which I define what I call eight densities. I know I’m giving you a lot of material here. You don’t need to hold onto the words or the details; your heart will hold onto the deeper part of it.
First density is mineral and gas. Second density is vegetable and animal, all the way up to your pets, who are at the top end of second density. They are learning awareness and then self-awareness, which is the end of second density.
Then the being incarnates into a third density, human form. The primary learnings of third density are faith and love. You are ready to graduate from third density when you are ready to move into fourth density, which is presently a fully telepathic, non-material form of existence. However, as the Earth goes through this transition, fourth density will be material. You will have bodies and still be fourth density beings.
Are you ready to be telepathic? Some of you might say, “Of course. It sounds like fun!” But think about it. Have you had any thoughts today that you are ashamed of? Did you look at somebody and say, “Oh, I don’t like her shoes or the color of her hair.” Would you want the person to hear that thought from you, or is there some shame about it? Do you want to hear it from others? What if somebody else had a thought about you, “I don’t like the way she looks.”? Are you able to hear that and not take it personally?
You still build a self and the story of a self around thoughts and what is heard or seen. You don’t see that this thought, not liking the color of my hair, has come out of this person’s conditioning. It doesn’t mean there is anything wrong with my hair, simply this person’s conditioning gave rise to this thought. It’s not a good or bad thought, just a thought arisen from conditions. If a mosquito bites your arm and it gives rise to an itch, it’s just an itch, not good, not bad, though perhaps uncomfortable.
The nature of the mental body is to give rise to thoughts. As long as you create a story of a self there is a lot of turmoil. Nobody is ever going to love you all the time. Nobody is going to hate you all the time, either. You can’t please everybody all the time, no matter how hard you try. When someone is displeased, then you think, “I’m a failure.” But, sometimes you are going to displease people. The nature of these trainings is to remove the self-story and know it has just arisen from conditions.
What you’re after is equanimity with all of this. By equanimity, I mean a state of ease and peace that knows deeply that objects arise out of conditions. They may be pleasant or unpleasant, but I do not need to contract my energy around them and build this self story around them. This non-contraction of energy is a key as we will talk more deeply about it this afternoon in relation to the light and work of the Casa.
You know the experience when something pushes at you and your energy contracts. Something can push at you without contraction. Hal, I’m going to ask you to help me here. Come forward, if you would, please. I want you to push me.
(Hal pushes and Aaron pushes back).
I’m pushing back, experiencing contraction. Now push me again. (Hal pushes again; Aaron does not push, but redirects Hal’s energy so it just moves past Aaron)
No contraction—can you see that? Just letting it go by. It’s just a push. In this moment he’s pushing because I asked him to, but so often the world pushes you when you haven’t asked for it. The issue is not whether it pushes you or not, but how you relate to it.
Please push again… If I take it personally and become tense, thinking, “No, don’t push,” there is a lot of contraction. If I don’t take it personally, it’s just a push. There’s ease, there’s no contraction.
It doesn’t matter what the catalyst is, you can learn to dance with it in this way. This is what the first three trainings are about, finding that spaciousness and ease with the arising of the physical, mental, and emotional bodies, were you to not take these objects personally, but know they have arisen from conditions and learn how to dance with them.
Thank you, my brother.
However, there is still a self doing this. In the fourth and fifth trainings, you begin to see more deeply into the nature of non-duality. Perhaps have a glimpse in your spiritual practice of what that non-dual means, although it’s still conceptual.
When you come back in the sixth to eighth trainings, you are working again with the physical, emotional, and mental bodies, but there is not so much of a self doing it.
So, at first, “I will not react,” but there is still a self. But as you move deeper into the experience, even at a conceptual level of non-self, you start to ask yourself “Who is not going to react?” The ‘I’ starts to fall out of it and you find that love holds open that spaciousness.
The tenth training takes you deeper into the direct experience of the non-dual. You become more stable in that experience. I spoke earlier of the fact there is a relative and an ultimate level to your experience in every moment. These are reversed a bit.
I don’t know if any of you are coming tomorrow, but my intention in tomorrow’s talk is to speak of the angel and the earthsuit. The earthsuit is the relative level of the human, the angel is the divine level, and they are simultaneous. You cannot hide in the divine level, in denial of the human experience, and you cannot simply muck around in the human experience and loose the awareness of the divine level. You most hold both. That is what we are going to focus on tomorrow, so I will not go further today.
At the tenth level of training, you come into a direct, profound experience of the non-dual. You begin to stabilize in that experience so that you begin to be able to live as what I call a pole. Feet planted in the earth, head in the heavens, and to be maybe not constantly, but most frequently conscious of the simultaneity of both the human and the supramundane experience.
You begin to relate to negative energy around you not from the brain, but from the heart, directly. It becomes a habit to relate from the heart. When something negative occurs around you, you respond with love. Instead of the brain having to say, “What am I suppose to do with this? Let’s look at the instruction sheet,” the heart knows how to respond.
Then the eleventh to fifteenth levels of training take it deeper from that place of knowing how to respond, practicing it until it’s quite perfect.
You can see that you go up and down with this. Some catalyst might challenge you, so you find your way back at the top five levels. Something really terrifies you, touches you, and you react. In other areas, you may go deeper, truly being able to hold that non-dual reality.
As we will discuss this afternoon, the physical body is heavy. The cellular structure of the physical body is water. The water becomes distorted because of the contractedness that comes up in the physical, emotional, and mental bodies.
Part of the Casa’s work is to clarify that water in the cellular tissue in the body. But unless you do the inner work, you cannot hold that clear water, because each time there is contraction around the contraction, there will be distortion.
Notice I do not say “each time there is contraction” but “contraction around the contraction.” I hit the knee and the foot jerks. It’s just a contraction. (yells) BOO! Contraction. It still resonates in the body a bit, but are you holding a contraction around it, or is there ease?
Breathing in, the body contracts and then releases. These are natural contractions, part of the ebb and flow of your being. If I feel fear and I am aware of the fear, of tension, breathing out I smile to the tension, releasing it. There is no ongoing contraction around it.
The problem is not contraction. The problem is that the brain kicks in, old habit energy kicks in, and the contraction is held and lodged in the body, lodged in the cellular tissue, lodged in the karma. Then you think, “I’ve got to fight with this, I’ve got to get rid of this contraction.” More contraction.
So, the Casa work helps to bring forth the clarity of the body, of all the bodies; helps you to feel that state of greater ease, joy, spaciousness, to feel the possibilities of that. But then you come home and you’ve got to do the work with it, because contraction is going to come back again.
How are you going to relate to it? Can there be more kindness? As in picking the tack out of the foot, can you begin to relate to your emotions and thoughts with the same degree of love and kindness?
The wonderful thing here is that you do not do this work just for yourself, although that may be your first perception. As you start to know that you are part of all that is, you know you do this work for all beings.
There are many supports, and one of the primary ones is the recognition, “I’m not doing this alone or just for myself, but I am part of this entire Brother/Sisterhood of Light.” The intention is not just to your own ease and comfort, but literally to eradicate suffering from the universe. To bring joy and peace to all beings, physical and discarnate, all beings on every plane. That may sound like a big ambition, and yet all of you have undertaken that at some level and that’s why you are here.
(break)