March 25, 2017 Saturday, Interfaith Workshop with Aaron, Jeshua and the Mother
Volunteering for Third Density Earth: Intention, Meditation, Non-Duality; Jeshua on “Here I Am, Lord”; Q&A on Prayer, Transition; The Mother, Guided Meditation seeing the Ripple of Disturbance in the Sea of Calm
We opened with chanting:
Hari Om, dear one, Sat Nam, Holy Name. When I call on the light in my heart, I come home.
Hari Om, dear one, Sat Nam, Holy Name. When I call on the light in my heart, I come home.
Hari Om, dear one, Sat Nam, Holy Name. When I call on the light in my heart, I come home.
Barbara: I have just introduced the states and stages of consciousness, read from the handout from Cosmic Healing, and have talked a little bit about it. I did not record it.
I’m going to be doing something here today that I have not publicly done much of. It’s easy for me for Aaron to come in. It’s easy then for him to return the body to me, and then Jeshua to come in. But they’ve been teaching me how to have them shift back and forth, without me having to come back in and then me having to hand the body over to someone else. This is all still new. So, Aaron will come in, other entities; who knows who’s going to show up?
I had a beautiful experience this morning about 6am. I was meditating, and just invited support for the day, that it may be of the highest service possible, and so forth. There was an embracing of so much loving spirit— Aaron, Jeshua, the Mother, and many others, wrapping themselves around me, pouring energy into me. Expressing gratitude to me for being willing to have them come through my body so they can share this message; to T, B, and L for the setting up; for all of you for attending, joining us. So they are fervent about their message, passionate about it, and very grateful to us for participating, and for this opportunity to share.
Aaron reminds me that before we start, there is one friend who was to be with us today, actually someone I had never met, a man named D A, who died this week. Let us have a moment of silence and holding him in our hearts. R, would you feel moved to say anything about him?
R:David was a wonderful soul. He was totally engaged in the local Ann Arbor community and in the Detroit community, trying to bring about change and heal the racial divide. He has a big event with the dispute resolution people that will be taking place April 7 at Washtenaw Community College. If anyone is interested, I can give you the details. It was just sudden, and it’s a shock for the entire community. He died peacefully in his sleep from pre-existing heart conditions. So thank you for remembering him.
Barbara: Thank you, R. One minute of silence, then… (silence)
No matter how often I channel Aaron, I always begin by challenging him. Something that’s very negative, as far negative as Aaron is positive, can try to come in if I leave an opening. I must do my deep work not to leave an opening. But I also challenge. So I’m going to include the statement of my challenge that I usually do silently. The challenge is my challenge. Another one of you might offer a different challenge.
Do you come for the highest good for all beings, and harm to none? And I feel the yes.
Do you come fully harmonious with the Christ? And I feel the yes.
Do you come in love? And I feel the yes.
And then I make the statement: I consecrate this mind and body to the Light.
I think a hard thing in learning to allow spirit to pass the body from one to another is not being able to offer that challenge to the new entity that comes. I’ve learned to trust that what is coming in is going to be what I expected to come. I know Aaron and Jeshua are protecting the body form intrusion.
(Aaron incorporates)
Aaron: My blessings and love to you all. I am Aaron. Thank you all for being here with me today, with us. What a joy to see your faces! The establishment of this higher consciousness is what you came into the incarnation for: to grow into this yourselves, and to support it for others.
Your world seems to be in a dark place right now. Of course, though recent decades, and through the centuries, there have been many times when the world was in a dark place. It seems to cycle. It gets lighter, then it seems to get darker again, and lighter, and darker again.
Think of the spiral. If you think of your Slinky toy; it may seem to sag, even go downhill a bit before it goes up again. But it’s constantly going up. You are advancing in consciousness. The places where it becomes slowed are ironically the places where higher consciousness is ascending and carrying much of the world with it. And those who are in mythical and magical consciousness, and even early rational consciousness, become alarmed, because there’s much pressure on them telling them, “What you believe is not so.”
I’m thinking here of a religion that might tell people, “If you kill people for the name of this religion, you will go to some glorious afterlife.” Well, we can understand this is not so. Killing is killing. But if you have been trained deeply that thisisso, then, if I might put it in this way, the reality that somebody is trying to express to you is dismissed as an alternate fact!
What is truth? Truth is love. It’s as simple as that. Truth is acting from a place of non-separation of self and other. Truth is love.
Those here today and those on the internet have all been working hard in your personal spiritual practices to live with more love, and to release beliefs in separation, to release old fear and hatred. But often there’s a feeling of, perhaps not quite despair, but a groaning, “Oh, this is hard. I didn’t know the incarnation was going to be this hard. What have I gotten myself into?” I repeat: this is why you came, and you are all volunteers. At some level, you knew exactly what you were getting into. We came to speak to the fear, to the hatred, to the greed, with love, both verbally and energetically, and also in our actions. And to do this, we must speak to that within ourselves. It’s hard work.
I’m going to start here with a guided meditation. All of you, those online and those sitting here, may wish to close your eyes.
(pauses existed but are not noted)
We are all together in a heaven realm. The way this looks will be different for each person. Some of you may find human-looking beings around you; others may find just energy and light. Some of you may find yourself in what seems to be high mountains, others by the sea, or in a garden. But for all there is a sense of deep peace, a feeling that you are embraced by loving energy, loving beings.
The boundaries you have placed around yourself as “me” begin to dissolve. You are the flowers that you see. You are the water moving in the sea and the clouds drifting overhead. You are the solid mountains, row upon row, fading into the distance. You are all of that. There is no need to armor the self in this heaven realm. Those who sit with you, you are all telepathic, deeply open, each to the other’s energies, cherishing each other and feeling cherished. Your body feels light. There is no pain therein. You are an angel; you can soar wherever you wish, move with ease, breathe the sweetest of air.
Sitting here together, all of us as a group, an elder comes, a very high and radiant being, shining with light. You feel the power of this being’s love. He begins to speak:
Most of you have been to the planet we call Earth before. You know that Earth was created based on the loving energies of those you speak of as archangels— Ariel, Gabriel, Michael, Raphael— and is deeply grounded in that love. Upon Earth, the law of free will was established so that beings might choose love or fear, greed or generosity, kindness or hatred. Earth was created in this way to see how far compassion could carry it. There was a deep conviction amongst the Brother/Sisterhood of Light and these archangels that the power of compassion and loving kindness could truly create a material planet that followed the laws of a material planet and yet emerged into a very high vibrational planet, bringing up the vibration of the ground, the waters, the life of the whole planet, to the highest vibration of love.
A few expressed doubt, but on the whole there was conviction: this can be so. But there was also the reality: for this to happen will take a lot of courage, because those beings who come to Earth, and aspire to express this radiance in themselves and bring it forth on Earth, will need to face and release their own darkness. So the real question was not, can this be done, but will there be enough beings of that degree of love and courage to make it happen. The archangels felt yes, and the Brother/Sisterhood of Light felt yes. And so the Earth experiment was undertaken.
Now on Earth we seem to be entering a new cycle of darkness. But I think this is partly because you stand so close to the darkness. From my perspective there is so much love and courage.
My brothers and sisters, all of you here in this heaven realm so filled with love, so carefree; once again we need volunteers. We need those willing to move into a new incarnation on Earth. It will be hard work. There will be fear. There will be confusion. There will be strong emotion. But you will be given all the support you need; support to remember who and what you are, because when you first come into the Earth’s heavy vibration you will forget. It may be many years before you fully remember, “I am Love”, and years until you remember what you came for: to transform fear and hatred with that love that is your essence.
All of you now who are ready, first we offer immense gratitude for your courage and your love. Now please picture yourself moving into a fetus, a human fetus, already feeling the lower vibration of this move. Feel yourself moving toward birth. Pressure on the body bringing discomfort. Feeling the emotions of the mother bringing discomfort. Feel how easy it is to get caught up in the sense of separation, and to fight with these negative mind and body states. Remember your intention: “I am coming into the incarnation as a messenger of love. I will be given the support I need. I choose to be born.”
And feel yourself literally coming through that birth canal— loud sounds, bright lights, perhaps even rough hands, cold. Feel how easy it is to close off into separation and lose touch with what you know, which is the power of love.
At this point it is so important to remember your intention not to become lost behind the veil of this heavy density planet. Hold your intention in your hearts: the transformation of this Earth, and through this Earth, of the whole universe, into a plane of light and love, this is my intention, and I will begin with myself, bringing forth love and light, compassion for this human.
You can feel the alternating pain and confusion, the heaviness, and the light. We do not have to be rid of the pain and confusion, only to stay connected with light, joy, and love right there with the confusion and pain.
Right now I just want you to remember your intentions. (chanting) OM…. Feel the love around you, supporting you. And acknowledge how hard it is to come into this heavy vibrational planet. OM…
pause…
(bell, bell, bell)
You may open your eyes.
Welcome to third density Earth. Thank you for coming. Thank you for volunteering.
We’re running behind, because we started late, but we’ll still take a few minutes to stretch.
(break)
We continue. As I said, welcome to this heavy density planet, which we are in the process of transforming into a much higher vibrational planet through the power of love. The hard part for the human is that when you come down here and it’s heavy and dark, you get caught in that darkness. It was very easy to be angels up in a heavenly realm, but how do you become humans and still retain the memory of why you are here, and confidence in your ability to be truly loving beings?
There are three parts to that “how.” First is the power of intention. This power is very powerful. What is your highest intention? Many of you have worked with me in a practice called clear comprehension. The first of two parts are, what is my highest purpose, overall and in this moment? And second, is what I am about to say or do suitable to that purpose? My highest purpose in a certain moment might be to keep myself safe, and so I think I could punch somebody else. Is that really going to keep me safe in the long-term? My highest purpose may be to be loving and yet I’m feeling enormous anger. Is erupting with that anger going to allow for the flow of love and harmony in the ultimate sense?
Keep in mind the day to day purposes of the human, who wants to be safe and comfortable, and with respect and compassion for that human, but also the purposes of the angel that you are, and how to remember, “Iaman angel and I will not act in negative ways. There is always an answer that is loving. I hold space for my fear. I hold space for my anger. I do not deny it; I hold space for it.”
So, remembering your intention is Part 1. Part 2 is Meditation, ideally daily meditation. Many of you who are here today practice vipassana meditation here with Deep Spring. Those of you far away, you can find places where you live, to learn and practice meditation.
The meditation that I have in mind is not a meditation that takes you someplace else, into an escape from the experience of this moment, but a meditation that helps you be present in this moment. I will speak no more about this now. This is a whole separate workshop, though essential.
The third part of this is breaking through the myth of either/or. Either I am an angry person or I am an angel; I can’t be both. Either I am confused or I am clear; I can’t be both. This is a myth. Right there with pain is that which is not in pain. Right there with anger is that which is not angry. Right there with fear is that which is not afraid.
With apologies to those of you who have done this exercise with me a hundred times, I am going to share this. I want you all, those online and those here, to hold one hand in front of your face and stare at it. Wiggle the fingers and stare. All you can see are the fingers. Let’s call this finger form, and this finger, emotions, and this finger, thoughts, and this finger, consciousness. They’re all there, grabbing your attention. Keep the fingers wiggling; relax your gaze and look through the fingers. See the space beyond the fingers. Come back and see the fingers again. The fingers haven’t gone anywhere, but can you see that by changing your focus you can see through the fingers into that vast space?
Here is another example of simultaneity. I’m looking for an unused piece of paper… This will do. A perfect unwrinkled sheet of paper, yes? Again, many of you have done this with me 20, 25 years ago… (crumples paper) A crumpled piece of paper. Right there in the wrinkles, can you see the perfect unwrinkled sheet of paper? Can you see it? For some years many of our Deep Spring materials went out on a photocopied sheet of paper that showed wrinkles. It was the cover page for many of our newsletters. So, wrinkled; not wrinkled.
You are perfect; how could you be otherwise? That which is radiant, beautiful, and loving in you, where would it go? How could it ever be destroyed? Then we begin to ask, what gives us the idea that itisdestroyed, that you are imperfect? It is not the intensity of your anger, of your fear, of your grief, which brings within it a certain contraction, but your relationship with these. When anger can arise within you without self-identity with it, it’s just energy, it’s just anger. The self-identity with it becomes stronger the more you say, “No, no anger.” Can you feel that? But what occurs when you relax and simply acknowledge: Breathing in, I am aware of anger. Breathing out, I hold space for the anger. Breathing in, I am aware of tension. Breathing out, I hold space for the tension. Breathing in, I am aware of fear. Breathing out, I hold space for the fear.
Whatever has the nature to arise has the nature to dissolve. Everything in this conditioned realm that has the possibility to arise because the conditions are present for its arising, when those conditions cease, it will cease. The external conditions and the internal conditions that brought up fear, anger, greed, confusion, even hatred, they are impermanent. And the only thing that keeps them going, that gives them power, is your hatred of them.
When you say, “I hate my anger!”, well, hatred breeds hatred. You’re giving it more energy. But when you’re able to open to yourself and say, “This human being is suffering at this moment. There is pain. I offer myself love and kindness, that this has befallen me.”, and you open your heart to yourself, gradually that energy dissipates and there is release of it.
I’m deviating from my agenda, here. I told Barbara we’re probably not going to follow these well-made plans, but we’ll try to stay with the clock.
(Aaron notes that the recorder was turned off here for a few minutes and something that’s on the video won’t be on the tape. Aaron thinks we were throwing balls of paper at each other and watching held contraction versus staying open and watching the body contract and release.)
…We were all up there in this heavenly realm with angels, open to each other, filled with love, but there was no heavy catalyst. Now on this earth plane there is heavy catalyst. Just the fact that you are in this body that can be destroyed, that’s quite a heavy catalyst. The fact that you come with an emotional body, and beings throw darts at it. You walk around feeling like you’re a human dartboard; that’s a heavy catalyst. But you have been given the gift of free will choice, and that free will choice is essential to the transformation both of yourselves and of your planet. If nobody had free will, everything would just be reactivity. And for eons, that’s how life went along. Now, with rising consciousness, there is a choice: I can go with what is coming at me, or I can release it. I do not have to get caught up in the negative stories that do still arise in the mind and in the body; literally karmically are stored in the cells of the body. I do not have to be caught there.
Things are always pushing at you. How are you going to respond? Again, using a practice that many of you have done with me before, but if Q will come up with me for a minute… She is pushing me and I push back. Stalemate. It’s not going to bring kindness or healing, is it? She pushes me again, and I let it swing past me. She can keep pushing me as hard as she wants to—harder, harder. I’m fully relaxed, here. Eventually she’ll wear herself out and she’ll stop. But you notice I’m not pulling away from her; I’m feeding the energy back to her for her to decide what she’s next going to do with it. She may push again, and I just give the energy back. It’s energy, that’s all it is. Pushing… giving it back. I don’t take it into me. Thank you.
We humans all have stored so many contracted energy patterns in the physical, emotional, and mental bodies. So as we look at the list of what helps— knowing your intention, meditation, breaking through the myth of this or that and seeing the simultaneity of experience— really understanding that, then there’s a fourth piece, the possibility of release.
When we talk about release, for a lot of people it gives the idea that we are releasing the armor. I suppose to some degree we are, but we release the armor through knowing that it was never needed in the first place. So all of these pieces come together. Holding the high intention. Watching the old patterns. Finding the simultaneity— right here with fear, where is that which is not afraid? Right here with contraction, where is that which is spacious? Opening, opening. And we see how we can flow back and forth.
The fourth piece is release. (Aaron checks the schedule and notes he’s again 20 min behind.)I was going to lead a guided meditation here. I’m going to shorten a 20 minute meditation into 5 minutes and hope that you will take it home and practice a bit more with it.
Again I invite you to close your eyes.(again, pauses not noted, but please pause as needed)
We have been walking through a turbulent rainforest for many days, covered in insect bites and mud, hungry and thirsty, tired as well, bruised, and there are miles yet to go. Can you feel the turbulence? Can you feel yourself shrinking into a shell? “This is too hard.” Whatever may be there— anger, fear, helplessness, or hopelessness, either one, I ask you all to sit down with me, here in this little clearing, and examine the armor that you have wrapped yourself in. Armor of thought, of anger, even an energetic armor, closing your body in. Surrounding yourself in something that is almost as thick as that tortoise shell, or maybe even thicker. What is my highest purpose? I came into this rainforest with the intention of connecting to all the beings here. To finding joy and peace and establishing good will with others. Remember your intention, and remember it is possible.
Altogether now, let us invite our guidance and whatever loving beings there may be. The warm sun shining down upon us. There is an array of beautifully colored butterflies, parrots, and other life. The sweet breeze. Each of your spirit guides, all of this, wrapped around you. “I ask for help. My intention is to grow in consciousness and love, to release fear. I am ready to release the armoring that I have carried for eons. I ask for help.”
Knowing I am behind, but I don’t want to rush you, here. I had intended this meditation to be 20-25 minutes. But if you feel ready to move on, to walk further together, please give a small nod of your head… Most, but not all. If you are not ready, that’s okay; you can listen to this later and do it yourself with more time.
But for now I’m going to lead us down a hillside, a rather steep path. In the distance you can hear water flowing. As we descend, you see glimmers of a waterfall, one that is small enough to stand under but big enough to have real power. It will not pummel you, but you will certainly feel its energy.
We reach the bottom of the path and walk across a small wooden bridge. Seeing the radiance of this waterfall, glistening, filled with light. It falls into a small shallow pool. Butterflies fly around it—so many colors, so beautiful. The sun hits it in a way that makes a thousand rainbows.
I am going now to walk across the small wooden bridge and step down onto the rocks, go up right next to the waterfall, and wait for you. As you feel ready, note your intention: I invite this blessed water to release all the places of fear, of old anger and pain. To release all that blocks me from the deepest experience of love and interconnection with all that is. I invite it to release the armoring.
When you feel ready, walk across the bridge, step onto the rocks, and take my hand and let me help you to stand under that waterfall. Feel the blessings of this pure, deep spring of water. Release all that is not useful to you, all the heaviness that has been picked up through these eons of human incarnation. Remember your intention of love. Your intention that goes beyond just you. Your intention to truly be what you came to be, expanding consciousness, not only on Earth but through the whole universe. Helping to move the self into the Christ consciousness, the Buddha consciousness, the love consciousness. I choose this. I know it is possible.
Right there with the heart that seeks it is fear. The fear is as the fingers of the hand moving. Consider the space beyond. Take my hand and step under the flow of water. Feel my energy and support, and that of your guides as well. Feel the water pouring down on the top of your head, into the crown chakra. Feel the whole body receiving this flow of blessed energy. Allow it to wash you clean, to open the chakras, to remove fear, to invite compassion, to open to the innate compassion and love that has always been there. Allow these flowing waters to touch the cells of the body and release karma in the cells, and to release the emotional and mental karma of eons. Breathe deeply and let it be. No force, here. If it is too hard to step into the water, simply hold my hand and stand beside it, and let me splash little bits of it on you. Whatever degree is workable for you.
Feel the possibility of moving into a deep space of love and light, and knowing, I am That. I am that Light, I am that Love. And I choose to express that on this heavy density Earth, that through my radiance and love I may help bring about the transformation of the Earth into a planet of love and of light. It really is as simple as that.
Know that you can come back to this waterfall at any time. Our visit is shortened today, but I hope you will try this at home in meditation, and sit here for 20 minutes, even half an hour, allowing this blessed water to wash you clean, so that you may more fully remember who and what you are. You are Love.
You may open your eyes.
We will have a shorter break than intended, 5 to 10 minutes. Those who wish may find it helpful to remain in silence. Some of you may wish to speak. If you come up to somebody and they do this (gesture), know that they would like to just stay silent. But you may go out and get yourself a cup of tea, use the bathroom.
(break)
So, we continue. Trusting that those online have made their way back to their computers or whatever devices.(pause for technical issue)Okay, within this room, no technical difficulties here…
Back to our Hari Om chant… (chanting)
Hari Om, dear one, Sat nam, Holy Name. When I call on the light in my heart, I come home.
Hari Om, dear one, Sat nam, Holy Name. When I call on the light in my heart, I come home.
Hari Om, dear one, Sat nam, Holy Name. When I call on the light in my heart, I come home.
(screen problems)Now I ask you all to join me as we practice Manifestation 101. Are we still not functioning? It is and it isn’t. There is a relative reality in which the camera is not functioning perfectly and an ultimate reality in which the perfect, clear focus is there…(The screen image improves.)That’s good, swing it around the room once so that our viewers may get a sense of the space that we’re in. I don’t know how many people in here now, we had 24 live people registered, and I think about 24 of you online.
When you look at something with fear, “Oh, it’s not working! How do we fix it?” as soon as you try to fix it, that contracted energy pushes it further askew. When you stop, breathe and visualize the perfect picture – everything is perfect, everything is just as it needs to be – and then allow it to manifest, whether it’s a picture or some human relationship— somebody is angry at you, yelling at you. You don’t deny that person’s anger. You don’t deny your arising anger, that may be there also. In this moment, where is compassion for yourself and the other? And then feeling the compassion for both of you and the possibility of real heart energy flowing back and forth. Envisioning it, and then, that’s how it manifests.
To let me inquire now, are we set? Yes. All right. The picture I see is further back. Not a problem, I assume…
So I have had my turn. I’m just looking at the schedule, here. We are the same 20 minutes behind. I’m going to let Jeshua speak for as long as he wishes to speak, then we’ll adjust our time for questions and answers accordingly.
That much said, it is a great joy to me to introduce my brother, Jeshua. Both of us cannot be in the body at the same time; I think we would explode it! So I will step out and he will step in. You may feel a difference between his energy and bearing; you may not. If you don’t, don’t worry about it. If all of this simply feels like Barbara, don’t worry about it.
Jeshua, of course, needs no introduction. I would only say that Jeshua, the essence of this being, is a vast energy. One stream of that energy comes through into this body. It’s a very clear and sizable stream, but if course this is not Jeshua any more than when you walk outside and feel the sun on your face, you say, “Oh, I am in the middle of the sun.” The sun is touching you. It’s a direct expression of the sun, but you have not walked into the middle of the orb in the sky. There are others who are mediums for Jeshua. Different expressions of that intensity we call Jeshua may come through others. So, Jeshua may sound a bit different coming through Barbara than he sounds through someone else. It’s all Jeshua, just as the waterfall felt different as it poured over your head and as it will 100 yards downstream if you wade in it. It’s the same water. It’s the same essence.
Jeshua will come.
(Jeshua incorporates)
Jeshua: My love and blessings. You have called me Jeshua, Jesus, and it is a great joy to be here with you today. I am purposely stepping down my energy a lot, to a point that I hope is comfortable to you and yet still imparts the love in my heart.
I hold great love for my brother Aaron— Nathaniel, as I knew him in my lifetime as Jeshua. And he has shared with you some of his memories of our time together. (pause) Just trying to give some equal time to those online, looking into the blue dot, I suppose. Interesting technology. My love to you all out there, and thank you for being with us, literally from around the world.
You look to me as a model of high consciousness. When I came into the incarnation as Jeshua there was much less forgetting for me of who I was, than there is for most of you as humans, because the high consciousness was more stable. I had had eons with which to practice, so when I came into that incarnation after a great deal of time on the higher planes, I was able to bring the memory and whole experience of that high consciousness, with me.
But yes, there were times of forgetting, times really of almost despair. Your Bible has my words, “Father, why have you forsaken me?” How could I speak such words? For every being, no matter how conscious, there are times when a dark cloud comes across the sun, and you seem to lose connection with that radiance. The sun, the Father/Mother/Divine.
Aaron spoke earlier(in the read introduction from Consciousness: Cosmic Healing)of the dark night, dark night of the senses, dark night of the soul, which is a bit different. In the dark night of the senses there is an emerging realization that what your sense experience is not ultimate truth. Then what can you believe in? With the dark night of the soul there is increasing sense of— I’m searching for the clearest phrasing here— one understands that you and the Father have never been separate. And forgive me; I could also say “Mother”, but it becomes too unwieldy to say both. You and the Infinite Creator have never been separate. And yet you begin to understand that you are a spark of this infinite radiance. You are also infinite, but you are still just a spark of that. You are creators. You are divine. And we cannot say this is more powerful than that, but simply it is more radiant. It is bigger.
With the dark night of the soul there is a sense of despair of ever coming home. Your Bible talks about eating of the apple of knowledge, and being cast out of the Garden. You were never cast out of the Garden. As Aaron described in the beginning of his talk, you chose to grow spiritually and in every way, no longer to be infants constantly taken care of, but to step into your own power, so as to enhance the power of that Infinite Creator. To be sources of love yourself, not merely reflections of love. In order to do that, you had to manifest your own free will. That meant subjecting yourselves to all the catalyst— the pain, the fear. For when you lived in the Garden, as in the meditation that Aaron led, you were in that heaven realm. Just as in that meditation, as Aaron said, “We’re looking for volunteers.”
So there you were, in the Garden, and a call went up for volunteers. Which of you is willing to explore the whole experience of free will; which exploration means the choice between acting from love and acting from fear, acting for good or for harm. You understood intuitively, if you stepped into that role there would be times when you did act from fear, did act with harm, and that you would be subjected to karma, as you had never been in Eden.
Imagine the courage, then, that it took, not cast out of the Garden but saying, “I will go.” There’s a beautiful song they sing at the Casa. It has a complex melody. I will not attempt to sing it. But the words,
I, the Lord of sea and sky,
I have heard my people cry.
All who live in dark and sin, my hand will save.
I who made the stars of night,
I will make their darkness bright.
Who will bring my light to them?
Who shall I send?
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you’ll lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.
I wish I could sing it for you. Barbara of course has never heard the melody, but I’m told it’s a very beautiful melody. That’s only one verse.
“Here I am, Lord.” Are you ready? “Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord? I have heard you calling in the night. I will go, Lord, if you lead me. I will hold your people in my heart.”
So you volunteered to step out of that Garden and come onto this heavy density plane. That was your first emergence on this heavy density plane, and you volunteered with so much love, because there was suffering, and because the call came from the Divine, God/Goddess/Father/Mother. “Will you help?” “Yes, I will.”
You have the mistaken idea, some of you, that our Heavenly Father said to me, as his son, “Now you will go down to Earth and you will experience hardship and eventually be crucified.” Well, that’s not how it went. Rather, he said, “There is suffering. Who shall I send?” And I, as a very evolved being of light, said, “Here I am. Here I am, Father. I will go. If you lead me, I will go. And I know it will be hard, just as you knew it would be hard.” There is no difference between you and me. Yes, I was a bit more mature, a bit more stable in that high polarity. But there were no guarantees.
Like you, I was stumbling from the realm of light into a realm of heaviness and darkness, and I did not know how it would be, but I knew that love would sustain me, and that love was what would help shift the Earth in those days from its increasing negative polarity into higher polarity. And it is the same for you.
I’ve heard a phrase, “crucifixion initiation”. This does not mean you’re going to be nailed to a cross, but each of you experiences this in your own ways. It comes through painful distortions of the physical or emotional body; through the loss of loved ones, loss of faith; through feelings of helplessness and fear. And again, it is the same for you as it was for me. I sat in that Garden knowing they were going to come for me, knowing I could still flee. Knowing that I had a certain task before me that was going to be extremely challenging, yet one I had been trained for. For I understood, as very few at that point understood, that the essence of me could not die, and that my work in that time was to help others to see that that essence could not die. To do that, I had to go through with a seeming experience of death. Without death, there cannot be rebirth.
What died? Well, certainly any last remaining ego of a man who believed himself to be Jeshua died. But it had to have already passed away before, or I could not have sustained the connection with light. It was the connection with light that brought me through, the same connection with light that Aaron helped introduce you to as you sat under that waterfall. Could you feel the waterfall washing away contraction and fear and negativity?
Right now, feel the presence of love. If I lift this… (the iPad recorder has fallen on the ground). You all notice when that fell I did not contract. I reached for it to see if I could stop it from falling, but there was no, “Oh my, what have I done! Did I break it?” It fell. It will either be broken or it will be fine.
(walking among participants, off mic)I want you to feel my energy. Close your eyes and feel it. I am going to bring down light. Since you have your eyes closed, those on the internet, open your eyes and look into my eyes.(someone offers to hold the mic and he says no)I need to be in the middle of the room and free to move to give the energy to them. Look into my eyes as best you can. I’m going to bring in a lot more energy.
Picture yourself sitting in a brilliant beam of light that is (burning) away anything that is negative in you. Feel how much I love you. Words are not needed so much. See if you can feel the energy, Father/Mother energy, surrounding you, filling you…
(pause)
The power of Divine Love. The power of what I call Father/Mother, Infinite Creator, Love. It is the only ultimate reality. All else is impermanent and subject to decay. Love.
(pause, returns to seat, on mic)
Can you feel that energy?
(pause; many nodding ‘yes’)
You may open your eyes.
And so I came into that incarnation, much as that song goes. “Here I am, Lord. I will come if you will lead me. I will hold your people in my heart.” This is why you have come into the incarnation. Holding all who suffer, all who are in such dark places of heaviness and despair, holding them in your infinite hearts of love. It does not mean that there will never be darkness, only confidence that you have the tools and support to break through that darkness.
And sometimes it’s hard. As accurately quoted, my sudden break into darkness. “Lord, why have you forsaken me?” Cutting myself off for the moment from that light. I was human. Humans do that. You cut yourself off from the light.
This is part of your gift of free will. Will you remain cut off from the light, or will you notice, with mindfulness, as Aaron would phrase it, “I am cutting myself off from the light. What is the reality, here? Am I really cut off from the light, or have I simply stepped into a dark place for a moment? How do I come out of it?”1
This question and answer are the heart of the matter: your strong intention not to remain lost in the darkness. No matter how many eons you may wander in darkness, you can come to an end of it, step out to the light, and be a model of living in the light, supporting others. For that’s basically what I did; that’s all I did. It’s what you are also doing.
I spoke a minute ago of crucifixion initiation. If each of you will reflect on your lives, you will see the times where you found yourself on that figurative cross, where you found yourself dying in some way, caught in deep pain and fear, sorrow and confusion. And you will find the place of strength and love within you, based on your intention, that brought you out. I can say that confidently to this group here. Certainly there are those on Earth who did not find their way out, and they are still wandering in darkness. The only way to help those wandering in darkness is to be the light.
But you must be careful. It cannot be “I” will be the light. Instead, the light of the Divine is within me, and I am expression of that light. I am nothing, of myself. But I am the deepest expression of that light emerging into the world. I choose to reflect the light. I choose to release the darkness. And I have the humility to ask for help when I cannot fully release the darkness. To trust I would never be given too much to carry. The support I need is there.
We look at stories of people who have been through horrendous experiences. Why? I can’t explain it all— karma, various choices; but for each of them, also, the opportunity to fulfill the contract with which that spark that they were first came into individuated being, with the free will choice: I choose to be light.
This brings us to a curious question. Some of you have read the book,The Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues,in which Q’uo and Aaron discussed at great length some of the greater metaphysical and life questions. One which they were fond of discussing: is there any ultimate negativity?
Darkness can be very dark indeed, and seem to go on to infinity. And yet, and Q’uo and Aaron agree here, what we call 6th density, the highest— let me rephrase; Aaron, give me a bit of information of how you express this… 3rd density human, human emerging into 4th and 5th density. Some humans can be 6th density, but some beings that are not human are also 6th density. Polarity as positive and negative ends at 6th density. There is no such thing as 7th density or 8th density negative polarity. So negative polarity ends at the top of 6th density. No matter how darkly-biased a being, how fear-based, how contracted, it cannot progress in negative polarity beyond 6th density.
From my experience, this is why I say the only absolute ultimate reality is love. Non-contracted, expansive, bearing the qualities of light and expansiveness. Your world would be a totally different place if there was an ultimate 7th or 8th density negative polarity.
Let me make some sense of this, try to bring it together for you. Aaron tells me I’m wandering a bit, and you may not have been able to follow me. Thank you, brother. We have for a minute been sharing the telephone as he shared thoughts too!
You are light. You are love. You also have had experiences of strong negativity, fear, even hatred, greed, and confusion. But they are impermanent, and when the conditions change, they will go. Despair is impermanent and based on conditions. If you will trust and hold the light that you are, bear witness to it in the world, bear loving witness to it through your own crucifixion initiations, it is a way of breaking through the veil of darkness that has covered so many beings for eons, and led them further and further and further into darkness, and into hatred.
The only answer to this growth of darkness is love. But it takes an enormous amount of trust in your own ability to hold that love, no matter what comes. There are so many stories of humans who have held that love, beings in terrible situations who, instead of turning their attention to themselves and their fears, have been able to support love, and encourage others; to give to others energetically; to give the last of the food or the warmth to others; to lead others, even though they led through the darkness, because there was a light within them that could find the way. And no matter how much darkness there is, each of you is given the ability to tune into that inner light and allow it to shine before you.
I’m going to turn tables on Aaron, here. In his Christmas stories, so-called, he tells a story of himself and of being in a cave with others. There was only one remaining torch. They knew there was a way out, but they didn’t know where it was. They had a few landmarks. Without finding their way out they would die in that cave. The men he was leading were afraid. Finally, the last torch burned out. I don’t remember the details of his telling of it, but I remember the reality of it, that some of the men wanted to kill themselves there rather than to die a lingering death.
He asked them to trust. He sat and meditated. He began to experience an inner light, which is a literal light that each of you possess. It may not seem to shine on the floor and walls, but it gives you a sense of direction. For Aaron in his telling, there was actual illumination. It became strong enough for him that he was willing to take the burden, “Here I am, Lord,” and say, “I can lead us out.” That meant he had to know there was no ego saying that, because if he led them over a cliff in the dark, he was responsible, his ego was responsible. He had to know, “I can trust this inner light,” and follow it, and so he did.
He says in his telling that he thought the light came from me. Well, I was with him in spirit. But the light came from his own heart, from love. And yes, he found the way out, brought them to safety.2
You are in a time of semi-darkness in your world. Not more so than there have been at times in your past, not just in your 19th century but in earlier centuries, times of immense hatred, murder, disdain for human life. But right now you’re in one of those places where you’re spinning around in possibilities of darkness, which calls on all of you to find that light within, to begin to trust it and bring it forth. I will walk with you, but I cannot do it for you because this is your learning. And if the Earth is to emerge into a higher positive polarity it will be because enough of you have touched that light in your hearts and brought it forth.
You can do it. It is why you came. As Aaron reminded you in that first meditation, “I volunteer. Here I am, Lord.” Whoops—into the fetus, through the birth canal— “How did I get here?!” Your choice, and made with so much love. So try to stay in touch with that love.
Now we’re still the 20 minutes behind. We have about half an hour, so I’m going to invite questions from the group here, from those on the internet, and questions to me and to Aaron. We’ll see how this passing the body back and forth goes. We’ve been working quite a bit with Barbara here and also at the Casa last month, teaching her how to do this. And I think the body, the subtle thread of Barbara-consciousness here is ready to do this. So we open to your questions.
Jeshua: The question here is the power of love. How to best use the power of love in our heart for the president and his family, who are suffering, and for all of those who are suffering in relationship to the president and his family. I’m going to speak first briefly, and let Aaron also speak.
He is a clear example of mythical consciousness, and of all those throughout the world who are still holding that mythical consciousness. If we, as before, had a president of a much higher stage of consciousness, it would not push those of rational, vision-logic and higher consciousness. When there is a leader of the country and so many others in that mythical consciousness, this doesn’t mean they’re worse, it doesn’t mean they’re inferior in any way, it’s simply the stage of consciousness they are in. But if we have the intention to invite non-dual consciousness, we’re going to smack into those who are attached to mythical consciousness, even rational consciousness (but less so because they are willing to be a bit more reasonable about our different ways of thinking). But those who are deeply caught in, “This is how it is.”, cannot even listen to how somebody else thinks it might be different; how do we respond to them?
The only answer is learning how to say no with compassion, to the president and all of those who are deep followers of the president. I’m not fully answering your question, here; a bit of a diversion, but, how to say no with compassion, which means releasing the anger, the fear, the polarization in your heart. To understand he’s doing the best he can. He doesn’t see the big picture. He’s not capable of it right now so he’s doing the best he can.
Once you fully understand that, you can begin to relate to him with compassion rather than anger. And it is only compassion that can help shift him, and perhaps through him some of his followers, into a more open heart, at least shifting into rational consciousness.
Taking it to a different area, yes, he is suffering. He is suffering because he has such need to be loved. He’s creating suffering for others because he has such need to be loved. Can you love him? That’s it. How do we say no with compassion and still love? He is giving you a wonderful opportunity to practice this. How do I say no clearly? “No, you may not do what will harm others, no. But I still love you. I don’t hold myself separate from your or as better than you.” Because as soon as you fail to do that, fail to offer love and begin to assert superiority, then that polarity will reestablish itself, and the other will armor itself and push back.
It’s like the pushing arms exercise. If that one pushes and you push back, they push back again. Even if you fall to the floor, they keep pushing. But when you absorb that energy and feed it back, saying no with compassion and truly holding him with love, praying for him, for his family, for his followers who are so caught in a place of fear and darkness, while still saying, ”no, you may not harm,” it changes everything. Is that sufficient answer? I had said Aaron would reply, but he says let us go on and he will reply to something else.
Q: Vipassana as taught by Goenka seems to be different than the one you teach, although the essence is similar. But his just focuses on experiencing sensation in the moment. And it is claimed that it is the pure form that the Buddha taught.
(Jeshua defers to Aaron)
Aaron: I am Aaron. I’ve heard the question, thank you. Q, I want to thank you for being with us from halfway across the globe.
Each teacher seems to believe his or hers is the purist form of what the Master taught. I do not claim that for what I teach, only that it leads one to liberation. There is indeed a distinction between the way I teach vipassana and the way Goenka teaches it. I am not suggesting his method is wrong, only his method works for those people for whom it works, who are at a specific level of learning, and what I teach better supports others who have different needs. One is not better than the other.
If you want to be a long-distance runner, you may need to strengthen to the muscles, or you may need to strengthen the breath and endurance. What needs training? For those who find it most beneficial to focus attention to each moment, the sensations in each moment and so forth, to better establish concentration and mindfulness, they can do that. But there is a price that is paid because they are pushing away something, subtly. They’re pushing away the spaciousness that is there with the object. They are needing to control the mind and where it moves in ways that are not entirely wholesome. But it’s a step of learning toward the next step. In the same way, in Burma, for example, the jhanas are taught before meditation, establishing concentration. Different methods. Those who will be drawn to each teacher and teaching will be those who can best use that teaching at that point in their growth.
I find that when we teach using choiceless awareness, to be present with whatever is predominant, not with wandering mind that moves into stories about this or that but which is willing to be present, which knows the object as pleasant, unpleasant, or neutral, which watches the reaction to the object; this is a very strong kind of concentration that watches the mind begin to drift off and invites it back, but does all this with a gentleness, a kindness, which does not berate the human for the resistance to some objects versus other objects. It does not negate the human because that human does not want to approach certain very painful objects, and therefore shifts away from them. Attention is just there and open and compassionate. I find that this is the way to liberation.
There’s a clear reason, as I see it, for this to be so. I’m not sure if you know what access concentration is, you, Q, or anyone else. Some here do, I know. It’s the point where objects are arising and passing away, arising and passing away, and seen so clearly as impermanent and not of the nature of a separate self, that although they may still be pleasant or unpleasant, there is absolutely no aversion or grasping. It is only at that point that the self, as a separate self, begins to lose any power. Then there is a shift from mundane consciousness to pure awareness; resting in that spaciousness of awareness, empty of self. This opens the level of consciousness that can perceive and have direct experience of the Unconditioned.
I have never studied with Goenka. I cannot speak firsthand in any way about his method. I know many people are helped by his method, especially those who are deeply suffering, so I trust that his method does lead to certain degrees of freedom. Thus, his method is not wrong, it is simply not where I would go with my intention to help beings find freedom from suffering, find liberation, and live in the open heart, all of that together.
I hope that answers your question. I would be happy to speak further of it with you at another time. Further questions to me or to Jeshua?
Q: Those who do not believe in God or Jeshua, even though they are good, helping, loving souls, can they enter the Kingdom of Heaven?
Aaron: I’m going to give this one back to Jeshua!
Jeshua: If you don’t believe in God, can you enter the Kingdom of Heaven? What kind of God would it be who kept people away because they did not believe that he was real? When you get there you’ll discover no belief is necessary. But God is not something out there; God is everything. If you think of God as being some being, then by that description it’s finite, it cannot be God. God is infinite. God is unlimited. That which we call God, the essence, is love.
The one who is asking, is this the Q who had the baptism experience in the river? (Yes.) In that moment, as you described it so beautifully, you felt your heart open, break open in love and in light. What you found there, would you have chosen to give it a name as limited as God, or would you simply call it divine expression, divine energy? The energy of the Unconditioned, the Divine, of Love— would that be a suitable description of it?
Q:That works for me.
Jeshua: That’s it. If people say, “I don’t believe in ‘God’,” well if you don’t believe in the power of love, you probably are going to need a lot more incarnation experience before you get ready to open to the Kingdom of Heaven. By the time you’re ready, you know the power of love. God is love. It’s as simple as that. Thank you.
Further question?
Q: Just a friendly suggestion. I would encourage people here to ask questions. I say this because in the past many people have had questions, and they told me they were too inhibited in a public space to ask those questions. So I’m encouraging people to proceed with their questions, because it’s not very often that we have access to Aaron, Jeshua, the Mother, and Barbara.
Q: Can Jeshua tell us more about the power of prayer, if we are not praying to some being or one outside of ourselves, but what happens when we pray for someone. And who are we praying to?
Jeshua: I’m going to return this to Aaron.
Aaron: I am Aaron. The power of prayer. I think Jeshua transferred it back to me because of an image that I communicated as you asked the question. You work with energy, yes? Now imagine that you have a person who had fallen, been knocked unconscious and been outside for many hours in the icy cold so his body temperature is low. He is in a state of shock. Imagine if there was just one person who came upon him. Would you try to wrap him up warmly? Would you work with energy? Would you feed him a hot beverage? What would you do? But what if you had 3 or 4 of you and each could take a part? Now what if you had a hundred of you? If you feel the energy and heat your hands, he’s lying here semi-conscious shaking from cold, and you all hold your hands like this, offering energy and light and warmth, can you imagine how quickly that will support this person back to health?
That in an essence to me is the power of prayer. Out of your own free will intention you are offering out your own loving energy to wherever it may be needed. It’s not that you’re praying to God to intervene. Your prayer is an expression of your love, which is connected to that All-That-Is. Let’s not call it God, Goddess, just All-That-Is. Think of the sun, of which there are a million sunbeams, yet each sunbeam has its own power. The sunbeam that’s striking over there isn’t going to warm me. The one that’s striking here is going to warm me. They are all expression of the sun. Your intention directs that sunbeam to the place of need.
Prayer is a statement of your loving intention to bring forth that which is for the highest good for whatever it is your pray.
Jeshua is saying, “Let me say something.” One moment, Brother…
So we’re not praying for God to fix something or intervene, but praying for the highest good for whatever this person or situation may be. We don’t know what the highest good will be. With prayer one offers energy, helping to support or co-create that highest good.
Jeshua: I am Jeshua. Thank you, Aaron. Prayer is also a statement of intentionality. Your intention is so powerful. When you have a negative intention— picture the mosquito flying around your head, and, “It might bite me!” (gestures) At worst (gestures killing it), or at least (gestures vehemently brushing it away). “Get out of here!” You’re certainly not considering the well-being of the mosquito. “Get out of here!”
The intention comes as, “for the highest good”, offered with humility, understanding that you do not know the highest good because the big picture is not clear to you; you can’t even say, “May this person live,” only, “May it be for whatever is for the highest good for them.” When that intention goes forth, as Aaron just said, it carries energy, warmth, light. In part, if we’re talking about a human or a situation, it helps to reveal clarity to the human or other sentient beings in the situation, to clear away the obscurations so that they may better connect with their own highest intentions. Their intentions may be, “Me, I want it for me.” But as you send love— offer love; I do not like the word send— as you offer love, that they may take if they wish, it helps to clear away the obscurations so that they may come more into their own heart and know their own highest intention for the highest good of all, not for the selfish me.
This is to me the highest power of prayer, that it supports whatever situation is held in prayer, whatever sentience is within that situation, to return to its own essence, know its own highest choice for the highest good, and allow it to manifest.
Q: On March 12 a beloved uncle of mine passed, and I have two questions. One, is there something that we can do in the zone of the living to help the transition of those who pass? And the other is, I’d like to know something about the process of transition.
Aaron: I am Aaron and I will respond. The process of transition. This process highlights why your dharma practice is so important, watching objects arise and watching how you relate to what has arisen. Watching, when there is contraction and aversion to what has arisen, the holding of that contraction, and pushing away what has arisen. As you know, this reactivity leads you into a darker and tighter place. As you practice you become more at ease with and accepting, acknowledging of the fact that sometimes what arises is going to be unpleasant; that this human has the capacity to hold space for what is unpleasant without contracting and hating it; that the hatred of it simply draws it back, gives it energy. So we practice in this way.
When the human dies, there is usually an experience first of moving through this, it’s been described as a tunnel of light, and I suppose that’s as clear a description as any. If the human comes to that experience with a lot of fear, just at the moment it starts moving into that tunnel, it will contract, “No! What’s happening?”, and bring itself into a place of darkness. If it’s able to stay present with the experience, even if there’s body pain or some discomfort, opening the heart to itself, aware, “I am in the midst of a transition. I don’t know what will come.” We never know what will come next. Every moment of your lives is a transition. You never know what will come.
Moving forward into that stage, if the heart stays open, usually there will be some splendid, radiant visions and some frightening visions. If you have practiced, you have developed the ability, when something is frightening and unpleasant, to hold space. Breathing in, I am aware of fear. Breathing out, I hold space for the fear. You don’t create stories or self-identity around these negative appearances. You just keep moving further and further into this experience of light. Eventually you move through.
So this is, in a very small capsule, the experience of transition. I speak of this someplace, in many places in the archives, but I don’t know where. But if you look up “transition” it can probably be found in much more detail.
So what can you do to help a loved one who has just made this transition? First, just sitting with them if you are there at the time they are dying. Saying, “Go to the light. Watch for the light. Stay with the light. I love you. I am with you.” Allowing your energy to be with them.
There’s a very helpful book calledAmerican Book of the Dead, as distinguished fromTibetan Book of the Dead. It’s an Americanized, anglicized version of the same practice, but without the Tibetan visualizations and flamboyance that is sometimes too hard for the non-Tibetan practitioner. It takes you step by step through the 40 days following death. But if you do not begin it on the first day or even within the 40 days, you can begin it at any time. Hold that person in your heart; talk to them. You may or may not feel where they are. Just recite the prayers, and follow as they move through the transition. They may have already moved fully through the transition. Wherever they are. If you’re able to start it immediately upon death, wonderful. But if you’re not, it’s not too late.
I could speak much more on this, but we’re short on time and I think that book will be helpful to you. One last question?
Q: When we have emotional patterns that continue from day to day, what is our part in the process? Does the final step of release happen through the grace of God?
Aaron: What is the grace of God? Are you and God separate? I understand what you mean by “grace of God,” and yet the grace of God is invited by your intention and opening heart. And it is your grace as well as the grace of God.
So yes, it happens by grace. But we must understand what grace is, and that there is no one up there pointing and saying, “Yes,nowhe can do it.” What is grace? Jeshua, I wonder if you would answer what you see to be grace.
Jeshua: I am Jeshua. Grace. Grace is love. Absence of grace is absence of love. We could not differentiate between God’s grace, God’s love, and your grace, your love. When love is there and open, with the deepest intention for the highest good of all beings, with harm to none, willing to do what is needed to release whatever is still sticking and negative, we release all the resistance in the self. We open. The process of release, actually, is part of the grace.
Grace is like a warm hug when you are cold. It is not something that you have deserved because you are worthy. It is not something that you have earned because you have worked hard. It is your birthright, to be expected and invited, and yet still, if it does not come it’s because at some level there’s still something sticky there, some level of resistance. Some place where you’ve not completely been able to let go. That’s all grace is.
But yes, it is real. People pray to me, “Jeshua, help me.” They want me to say, “Okay, I’ll fix this, I’ll fix that.” That’s not how I work. That’s not how any of your guides and the great masters work. You are great souls. All of you are divine and radiant beings. I will walk with you, but you must walk; I will not carry you. That would be a, — Aaron, what is the word? He’s asking me what I mean to say. It would be disrespectful to you to try to carry you. It would be saying, “I don’t believe in your ability to walk. I don’t believe in your ability to love. I don’t believe in your ability to invite that which you most fully choose to invite.” But I do believe in it, so I will walk with you and hold your hands. I will counsel you. I will smile and laugh with you. I will cry with you, hug you. We talked earlier of the power of prayer. I will pray with you for your heart’s fullest opening, so that you know the power of your love and then find the grace to bring forth that which you seek.
(Group discussion on how they want to proceed with the schedule.)
I’m going to release the body to Barbara, at this point. Give the body a chance to stretch. Ask that you turn on the heat. And the Mother will come in in about 10 minutes.
(break)
(In the following meditation, there are numerous pauses that are not noted.)
The Mother: Feel the fire energy in your body. Feel it in the solar plexus. Feel the water element in the body’s waters, the fluids of the body. Ground through the building down into the earth. We give thanks for these brothers and sisters, earth, air, fire and water; ether too. We open our circle to invite all loving angelic presence. Only that which has the highest intention for service to all beings may participate in this circle. Others are welcome to listen.
Move down through the spine and anchor yourself into the earth. Feel power coming up from the earth and stillness also, stability. Breathe in through the chakras, and exhale, and again. Find the fire in your belly, the life force in the solar plexus. As you breathe in, let that power grow, enhance. With each breath, bring it up from the base to the crown. As you breathe out, ground through the feet down into the earth. Wind and water, find them in the breath and the body fluids. The elements are thusly balanced in this expression of the divine that you are. For you are so radiant and beautiful. You are the Divine, God, Goddess, Love.
Open to your own highest intention to be of service to all beings, for an end of suffering for all beings. Based upon that intention, allow yourself to let go of any separateness, and feel the presence of the others in the circle. And you on the internet, you are very much a part of the circle.
I’m going to ask you to try something there. I don’t know if it will work, and you’ll have to tell me how it is. The two opposite me on either side of the screen, if you adjust your chairs a bit, can you instead of holding hands in that center space each take one side of the screen? You’ll have to push your chair back a bit. You need to be in a position that you can hold for a while with no discomfort, to turn the chair so it works for you. Can you feel the difference in the energy? Can all of you out there feel that energy, that you’re part of the circle now? I don’t know if you can feel it, but I can see energy circling through.
Feel each person’s energy flowing into you and out of you. There is no longer any point where you can say, “That is my energy and that is his or her energy.” Allow yourself to feel the chain of energy. Full presence. Love circulating.
Each of you has innumerable guides, loving guides behind you with hands on your shoulders, supporting this energy circle. Some of you may feel this, some not. If you don’t feel it, there’s nothing wrong with you, but please trust me it is there. Take a moment to thank them for their presence, and feel their energy coming through you and into the circle.
Here we might offer a prayer, also, to the Great Masters, to all awakened beings, to support our intention toward release of suffering; toward raising of consciousness; toward the transmutation of distortion in the world.
As one being, all together we are going to journey into the vast field of awareness and love. Breathing in light and breathing out. And again, breathing in light, hold, and then release. Drawing in love through the left hand, hold it in the heart, and send it out through the right hand. There is nothing that you can define as my love or someone else’s love. From my perspective, it’s very interesting. When the circle’s energy touches the screen through the right hand of the person, hand on the screen, it breaks into many radiant fragments, zapping itself through the screen, through all the faces there, and then out the other side.
Breathing in light and breathing out. You are beautiful and radiant, and I love you. Feel yourself moving through whatever doorways or channels open for you. You are connected, yet each of you is unique. The vital point here is to allow the ego to release enough that you can sink down into that vast sea of loving connection.
However you come into this sea, visualize a vast, golden expanse of water; deep blue with gold lights and diamond light glittering on the tiny ripples. Breathe in and breathe out. Allow yourself to sink down through the surface, knowing you will be able to breathe. Going down, and down, and down. If any fear arises, feel the presence of this circle of which you are a part. Feel the guides, the love. Know that you are supported. You are never alone.
Going down ever deeper. Feel the intense radiance all around you as light. Rest in the light. Feel the joy of it. It is you, nothing else. You are that light, each of you a part of it. You are love.
All around you is light, yet here and there your attention is attracted by a distorted current, a small whirlpool or eddy of water. It is not other than the Divine, it’s an expression of the Divine. Yet as you look at that eddy, you see beings tossed, caught, sucked under, and afraid because of the swirling movement of the water. There’s nothing there but water, wind, and current, and yet there is a subtle distortion. Feel it within the compassionate heart.
Together, drawing energy from each other and from each other’s loving intention: May all beings be free of suffering. May I support this for all beings.
Right here with this ripple of disturbance is the perfect calm, clear water. Beings still seem to be swirling around in the current. For whatever beings may make use of this stillness and space, we hold it open for you. We do not push beings into the stillness and space, only hold the door open, inviting the free will choice. So first find the stillness and the love in your own heart. And resting in that loving spaciousness, see how it holds the door open for those who still swirl around in the current.
Now we are going to go deeper. Again, feel the energy of this circle. If any ones of you feel caught in your own specific ripple of distortion, silently, but with inner intention, send out the message to the circle. “For the highest good of all beings, I choose to free myself of the hold of this illusion, of unworthiness, of separation, of fear.” Perhaps fear of power, or the ripple of loneliness. “I ask the circle to hold space for me while I personally move into investigation of this illusion, and especially of the illusion that I am caught in it.” For no one ever has been truly caught. When it catches at you, it simply is asking you to deepen your affirmation and intention. “I am free. I am love.”
Feel any requests for support energetically, and offer it. Feel your own request for support, and that which comes to you in reply, and accept it with gratitude and joy. Caught, not caught. What does it mean to be free? Feel that freedom in this moment, right there with any distortions. Feel the power of your intention, and the support you receive to manifest your intention. For the power of your support to help others manifest their intention.
I’m going to be quiet for a short while. You may or may not feel the others in the circle directly. You may simply feel some energy. You may not know who it’s coming from, or where. You may feel some need and not know from whom or where it comes. Simply respond with your hearts. Don’t forget the vast circle of spirit behind you all, backing you up and supporting you. Invite that energy in, and through your hands as well.
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As in the song:
Here I am, Lord.
Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.
We receive and we send out, and there is no giver or receiver. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. There is energy and healing here for all who seek it, and for millions beyond this circle. I’ll be quiet now.
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It is beautiful to watch the dance of your energy fields, one and another asking for help. And all of you, humans and spirit, moving out to support this or that person, to support their choice to release distortion. And then the gift passes on to another person.
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Wherever you see people suffering, you cannot save them, only open your hearts to them and reflect love, joy, and welcome, and receive the same for yourself. For it is your love that saves you, and not another being. But others’ love supports you and helps you find the courage to move on into the fullest expression of high consciousness of which you are capable; to release the old, limiting beliefs so they no longer drag you down.
Know that you sit within a vast circle of elders. The thought might occur to you, “I am not worthy to be a part of this circle.” There is never a question of worthy or unworthy, only of readiness. When you heart tells you, “I must do this. I must step beyond the old limiting beliefs. I must let go of that which has dragged me into darkness.”, then you are ready.
This is a circle of those who have taken, in the Buddhist tradition, a bodhisattva vow. Other traditions have other names. These are ones who have committed themselves to speak up for those with no voice; to help shelter the homeless; to see for the blind and hear for the deaf; to hold love for those who feel bereft of love. Each of you is welcomed and blessed into this circle. The power of this circle is your power, and the heart of this circle is your heart. It is only ego’s voice that fears that power or grasps for it. Know yourself and your intentions, that you will never misuse the power, but will use it only for the highest good.
See some of the great masters as part of the circle, and let one hold your attention, hold your inner eye and touch your heart. Again, there may be some fear. “I am not worthy.” No one is ever unworthy. Come forth and be blessed by this divine presence. Feel his or her love or blessing. Open to the intention to walk by his or her side, to support and be supported.
Then once more, send this energy of love deep into whatever distortions, whatever rips in the fabric you may find. Go deep here, and with courage, using this energy to transform negativity, fear, hatred, greed, and anger, in whatever form it appears. Not to throw it away, but to transmute its energy to love, and for the highest good.
As the human, part of you is still in a lower consciousness, but also feel how you have come up into this vast field of love, and it is you. It is not something that is given to you; it is your essence. You are love. You are awakened consciousness. You are that.
As we begin to close the circle, remember that you never withdraw from the circle. It is your home. You only shift your weight from one foot to the other, so to speak; one leg always within the circle, grounded within the divine heart; and yet seeing with the eyes of compassion, looking out onto this relative reality. You can move, take care of your children, support your relationships, and so forth, without ever losing touch with the essence of being. Let’s call it grace, or love. You are that.
Keep connected to this circle, both this smaller circle here and the greater circle of which you are always a part. Do not be afraid of your power, which is grace. Feel the angelic presence behind you that will guide you and help to keep you on a true course. The power will not be misused.
Reach in one more time to shine the light of love wherever there is a ripple of distortion. To show the possibility of the expression of clarity, spaciousness, and well-being. Stillness within the loving heart.
You may take a deep breath and open your eyes. Looking around the circle, feel the love for the others in this circle. You are them and they are you. Look into your neighbors’ eyes. I am making contact here with the camera, hoping that those on the screen can look into my eyes and feel my love, and with all of those here within the circle.
My love is with each of you, always. You are so beautiful. I wish you could see yourselves the way I see you. You are so beautiful. I love you. I love you very much, now and forever. And there is nothing you could ever do to lose my love. It is only you that puts yourself out of the circle of my love. Please don’t do that.
For those on the internet, I love you so much. My heart is with you. I hope you will come to know your radiance, your beauty, and trust it. This is the path to awakening consciousness, to begin to trust the radiance of your own heart.
You may separate the hands. You don’t have to; you may.
Whatever good may have come from this meditation, we offer it out to the highest benefit of all beings everywhere. Through our own hearts’ work, may all beings be free from suffering.
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We consecrate what we have learned today, what we have gained, to the highest good of all beings.
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May all beings everywhere be happy and find perfect peace.
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We are going to drop off the closing words and simply end here. It’s 5:07pm; I think that’s enough.
My blessings and love to you all. Aaron and Jeshua offer their gratitude for this time spent with you. I love you very much, as they do. I’ll release the body to Barbara.