June 9, 2019 Sunday, Remembering Wholeness
The Mother Speaks Briefly On Using Darshan as Refuge vs. Escape
The Mother: My love to you all. I am the one you call the Mother—Mother, father, sister, friend, whatever you would have me be; I have no preference. I am simply a being of high vibration who comes with love to help support you to know your own highest self and live from that sacred heart.
Aaron has been talking recently about the practice for the Dharma Path group next year and moving further into the practice of Sacred Darkness. Before you can move into any experiences of sacred darkness, there needs to be some stability with light, as a place where you can rest. Many of you through our time together have come to truly enjoy my energy…
(pause for late arrivals)
Have you been here before? I am the one they call the Mother , I am incorporated in Barbara’s body, and I’m just giving some introduction before we start…
Many of you have experienced a strong high vibration of love when you look into my eyes and hold my hands, and that’s beautiful. I want you to enjoy that high vibration and let it help you find the resonant vibration in yourselves, so you truly begin to know who you are as radiant beings of light.
But, in line with Aaron’s sacred darkness practices that will be taught next year, I do see how some of you use that experience of light not just as a shielding, as a refuge from a place of pain, but as an escape. I’m sure you can feel the difference. A refuge is a resting place. It is a place wherein when you are shaking with the heaviness of the earth realm, you can come in and rest in a place of light and love until you are ready to step out again.
In classes, many of you have heard Aaron talking about the three kayas and the sambhogakaya bridge. We have nirmanakaya—form body; Dharmakaya, the radiant, divine body; and sambhogakaya, which is literally interpreted as “wealth body.” It’s the bridge that connects the mundane and the supramundane. You can become lost in the mundane world, shaking with it, overwhelmed by it. You can, some of you in deep spiritual practice, move into a radiant experience of light. You are glowing, you are joyful, and you want to stay there forever. But if you stay there forever, you turn your back on the world of suffering, including the suffering of your own mundane self. So, we practice getting back onto the bridge, in the center or even at the far end near the Dharmakaya, or at the other end near the mundane, but always making contact with both realms.
Aaron is feeding me a bit of this, so if you’ll pardon me while I pause… You know he is the dharma teacher; I am simply the Mother. Not minimizing that role, but I am not the dharma teacher.
What Aaron and I and others have perceived is the very human tendency to take the energy and connection with me and use it not just for refuge but for what some call “spiritual bypassing.” Aaron says he plans to talk a lot more about this on Wednesday night, so what I’m saying here is just a brief introduction to his Wednesday night talk.
But it’s important because here, when we are in the midst of darshan, you feel my unconditional love, my high energy, and then you return to your seat, it’s important that you watch for any tendency in the self to hide out in that unconditional love as a place of escape from mundane reality, rather than using that unconditional love as support that allows you to turn around and face mundane reality again with less fear and less contraction.
So, I ask you simply to watch that tendency today. If it comes up, simply to note, “Ah, that’s what the Mother was talking about. It is fear that pushes me to use her love as escape, as hiding place. I choose to use it instead as refuge where I can rest until I feel ready to turn around and look clearly at my concerns for myself and for the world.” That way our work together becomes a deeper support for your returning to the world and using what you have gained here as ways of service in the world.
I hope that makes sense to you. That’s enough words. We’ll move onto the darshan…