November 14, 2021 Sunday Morning, New Hope NC Retreat
Knowing the Divine Masculine and Feminine in Ourselves, Expressing Power and Compassion; Soul Weariness, Imbalance, and Anger: Finding the Co-Existent Place of Balance; Satyagraha: Using Power of Anger to Say No with Non-Harm
Barbara: This is the being that lived 2,000 years ago as Mary Magdalene. She prefers just to be called Mary.
Mary (B): My love to you. I am Mary. I asked to speak to you because I have been where you are—not in my lifetime as Mary, because I had deeper understanding when I came into that lifetime, but in lifetimes before I lived as Mary. I had numerous lifetimes as a human; I have worked with your vipassana and similar practices. And I have lived with the pain of losing a child, of losing a loved one, of losing my own life; of feeling lack of control, of pushing against the world, and feeling pushed by the world.
You are not here to push or be pushed. You are here to begin to know your non-duality with the earth and with each other.
You are here in male or female bodies because you are a human, but you are not inherently male or female. Each of you are part of the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine. You come in one body that expresses as male or female, but you come as both together.
The divine feminine expression of your nature is especially receptive. It nurtures. The male is strong and plants the seeds, digs the hole and puts the tree into the hole. Then the earth nurtures the tree. But neither the masculine nor feminine can exist without the other.
I’d like to speak to you this morning about the breadth of energy that I’ve noticed in each of you—some of you trying to be the nurturing one and forgetting your innate strength; some of you trying to be the strong one and forgetting the nurturing compassion in you. It is so important that you begin to merge these; to see in yourself both the Divine Masculine and Feminine and that you are that, and that as you manifest these qualities you help them to manifest throughout the earth.
A lot of the pain on the earth right now, as I perceive it, is coming from beings who forget that they are both. In trying to be powerful, they forget their compassion. In trying to be compassionate, they forget their power.
I would invite you today to explore this mingling of power and compassion within you. Not your power—the power. Not your compassion—the compassion. Be all of this.
This knowing of your fullness will help move the earth into a higher density and help all of you to transition into 4th density: knowing that you are the power and the source; the expression and the nurturing—you are all of it.
Why are you afraid of that truth? There is no reason to fear, because you have come here ready to do this work. You are all very beautiful, very strong, very ready to express outward into the greatest realms of being, into a clear non-duality of love and of wisdom.
And we, spirit, are here to support you, each of you with your own guidance. We love you. We respect and cherish you. And we are a bit awed by your courage.
That’s all I wish to say, but I will be glad to hear questions.
John: Aaron has spoken with Barbara and myself prior to the retreat about the weariness that many beings are experiencing in the world right now, as the world is in a challenging place. He referred to this as the ‘soul weariness’. Is this soul weariness an imbalance of the masculine and feminine energies? Or is it just a more natural outcome of the state of the world as it is right now and our human experience of it?
Mary (B): Thank you, John, I hear your question. The state of the world right now is more an expression of the imbalance. The soul weariness is an expression of the state of the world right now, which is an expression of the imbalance. One of the major things that you have come to do and to learn, if the world is to transition into 4th density, is to heal this imbalance.
Power and peace. Nurturing and strength. They must come together.
You are exhausted from trying to fix the imbalance rather than breaking through the imbalance and coming to the place where there is no imbalance. Not very different than coming through the sometimes-painful expressions of this present moment and finding, right there with that pain, the peacefulness and spaciousness.
As Aaron puts it, right there with the solid object is spaciousness. Right there with the imbalance is balance.
You are not to attempt to fix the imbalance but to find the already existent balance.
That means addressing the part of yourself that is afraid—the nurturing part that’s afraid of its power; the powerful part of itself that is afraid of letting go of any of that power by opening into a softer knowing of itself, fearing such movement would weaken it..
What if I’m not powerful? Or, what if I’m too powerful? It’s more about power than anything else, and your relationship to power.
So much of the world’s expression right now is about the imbalances of power.
Thank you. Do you have further question, John?
John: Just that I feel this soul weariness within myself. And I’m not sure what is out of balance that is contributing to the weariness.
Mary (B): I would suggest for many of you, part of the masculine expression of power is rooted in anger. And there is an imbalanced relationship with the anger—your own and the world’s anger.
The world is furious right now, both the sentient beings on the earth and the earth itself.
How do you relate to that anger, to that rage within yourself and within the world, within beings around the world that are dying, whose needs are not being met? You also feel the vibration of the Earth itself that is being so challenged, feel both the earth’s anger and that of beings whose needs are not being met.
This calls forth the Divine Masculine who approaches fixing with its power, but may shut off compassion to wield that power, and the Divine Feminine that wants to hold and embrace and nurture but feels powerless. How do you reconcile these? I pause.
John: I guess how I reconcile that within myself is to hold anger, rage, with deeper compassion.
Mary (B): Yes. And that’s one wholesome path. But anger is energy. And if you hold it with a lot of compassion, there’s a tenderness there, but it depletes the energy if there is some tendency to get rid of anger.
Instead, can you bring that energy into your body, know it as power, and not be afraid of your power? The power to say no to a world that has gone crazy. Not condemning, not doing any harm with that anger—committed to non-harm. But the power to say no.
Satyagraha means soul force. Gandhi used this. He understood this power to say no. He was not afraid of his power. He was not afraid of his anger. Yeshua, of course, was not afraid of his anger, and used it.
Let me give one other example with Yeshua. There he is on the cross, dying an excruciating human death, and from the depth of his power, is able to say, “Forgive them, for they know not what they do.” Can you feel that as an expression, not only of compassion but of power?
I pause. (They agree to end the session and share this with others not present.)
It is a joy to be with you. I want you to know how much we of spirit realm are encouraged by your inner work, by your willingness to do this hard work to come to know yourselves truly as powerful love. Not afraid of your power but grounding that power in the heart we all share, in heart of God, Goddess—however you name it.
It is a joy to talk with you, and I would be happy to come back later today if there is desire for that. My blessings to you. I love you. I am Mary.